Believe it or not but that was me five years ago! Before becoming a mommy I was a dancer, a professional dancer. I breathed, slept, and lived dance. Dance was my identity. People would ask me what do you do and I would proudly respond I am a dancer!
My body was in prefect shape. I loved how I looked and never had a problem with self-esteem.
Then I became a mother. I was amazed that I could push out a baby and felt as though I could take anything on. I was very different. While life was a little crazy and exhausting I seemed to adjust pretty well.
I became a mother for the second time. WOW....I mean I have done this before no big deal… right???
Well, kind of. Now instead of just stretch marks I have a belly pouch with stretch marks that resemble deep scars. It’s hard because I do not like it. In fact I down right HATE it!
I am sure you are rolling your eyes saying get over yourself already but I mean really…. It’s HARD!!!
I feel like this is tough stuff that no one mentions. No one ever told me that you will have a baby and they are sooo amazing but in the process you will learn what it really means to sacrifice. Your body will no longer be just yours. No one ever told me that it would be hard to look in the mirror and like what you see. No one ever told me it would be hard when your husband tells you how great you look and you actually have to tell yourself he is telling the truth.
So as a mom I have been thinking why don’t we tell each other these things? I think it’s because saying these things makes you look selfish and ungrateful BUT heck it’s the truth!
Now that I have admitted to having low self-esteem about my stretch marks and finding it very hard to accept that I will look like this from now on you can either silently agree or ridicule me and call me selfish. Your choice but I choose to be transparent!
I love my boys and now I need to learn to love my body again…